(Uh)

I'm so annoyed, totally.

Anyways, stop acting like you care when you don't because if you were truly concerned, you would have stayed and not leaving me all alone there. Do you even know that I've always tolerated you, your actions your everything. So what, after fighting for power with him for months or maybe a year, you wanna' quit now? I thought you were true, never did I expect you to be fake. I don't understand why you are doing this. I've thought you wanted to take charge still, like how you wanted previously. Your face at that moment, was really hurting my eyes. That piece of meat telling me that you were being forced to leave, that you want me to sympatize you and not be angry. Your eyes, they told me that you were just giving an excuse. Before, you had your silly excuses, and now? I don't know what you want. You and your inane questions drive me nuts. 3 words to describe you as a farewell gift - impetuous, unrepentant, impudent.

Today, the dancers lied to the sec fours that there was a birthday celebration for Wenyan. It turned out to be a farewell celebration for us. It was really sweet and sincere. Both Jiaxin and Sharon, the ex chairman and the current chairman respectively, shed tears during the celebration. Well, most dancers were present and I really appreciate the party. There was this award ceremony for the sec fours, it was so creative as it was in the cloth you hang over a winner during a beauty contest.

Janice - Miss Goodie
Jiaxin - Miss Crazy
Yuling - Miss Perfect
Yanqi - Miss Blur
Charmaine - Miss 花痴 (Seriously, I was awarded with this)

Ridiculous right, the reason why I guess, was because I always joked with them saying that Handsome guys will kidnap me if I walked to the bus stop alone. Anyways, we also received a bottle of stars with small pieces of handwritten notes. And being nice, I'm gonna type them out as though I am saying ThankYou.

(In random order)
Elaine: Wish you luck for O's! And must be happy and lively whereever you go. And don't mind this "Kimbum, Kimbum, Kimbum" :D
Meilian: You are the best girl, always. Haha. Thanks for all the memories that you had given me. Love you more than words can describe.
Cheryl: Wish you well. Best wishes! (: Smile always.
KwanYick: Hellos, I will miss you! Good luck in your examinations and everything. Loves.
Liying: Hey, gonna miss you so much after you graduate! Jiayou in everything you do. All the best.
Sueling: Thanks for teaching me the dance steps. All the best for your examinations. (:
ShiQi: You're the great dance. (:
Canny: Charmaine, all the best yah.
Zhiyin: Charmaine, I will miss you the most! You're the funniest and most fun to be with! Best wishes.
Yihan: Char-tar-tar, hey sister, love you lots, hope you do well in your O's. Hehe.
Shufen: Good luck in everything you do, hehe.
Lynette: Charmaine! After you graduate must come back ah, I don't care!
Jolene: Hello dancing queen, Jiayou in your exams! All the best (: I will miss you and must visit us often. Love ya!
Adelle: Hey Charmaine, the big bully. Wishing you all the best in everything you do and hope that you are able to get into the school of your choice! :D All the best.
Sharon: Dear Charmaine, thankyou for your guidance, lame jokes and laughter. I will miss the time being with you. Good luck for your O's.
Wenle: Hello. Good luck for your O's. I miss you, I love you. Goodluck, you're the best! (:
Kereen: Hello (: Thanks for your effort and hardwork you have put in dance'09 . Wish you lucks in your exams!
Isabelle: Hello super junior fan! Thanks for committing your time and hard work to HS chinese dance. Continue to be so adorable! :D

See, everyone writes almost the same thing. That is why English wishes are limited. The note that left me laughing was Lynette's. I don't know why, but while reading, I imagined her face and tone. And now, I have to do their farewell gifts, it's gonna take me awhile.

Sighs, I think I'll blog another time, I'm feeling rather sleepy.

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(T.T)


I was so embarrassed today. It was in the morning while I was on the bus, heading towards an empty seat. All seemed fine until I sat down, and my god damn shoe frigging came off and landed on the aisle. WALAO. I quickly stretched my leg and 'scooped' it up and pretended to study. I don't think anyone will understand how I feel lah. I was feeling so horrible inside. Darn it. There were a few students on board and I guess big time that they were laughing! Now, I seriously dread sitting 156 tomorrow to school. ):

For those of you who don't know, I am wearing this pair of shoes, with the portion where the heel is, broken. Thus I wear my school shoes like a pair of bed room slippers. Some people think that I deliberately wear them like that. Stupid, my other pair of shoes is in wash and I'm too lazy to tie the school laces of a new pair of shoes.

Anyways, I shall blog about yesterday. The express classes, except 4E1 had to stay back for a 2 hour physics practical lesson with Mrs Goh in the library. Felicia and I were planning on how to escape throughout her lesson, even though she has already said that we were allowed to leave as and when we like, because she could not be bothered. I don't know why, but Felicia and I were kinda afraid of leaving. But at around 4.25pm, Felicia suddenly grabbed her things and stood up without telling me and walked off. Naturally, I quickly grabbed my things and moved hastily too. Then Felicia told me that I looked so confident while I was going out, it was so funny that we kept laughing and laughing. She also forgot to tell me that she was about to leave, so stupid. Lol. Anyways, when we were outside, we totally burst out laughing. We laughed at those 'prisoners' trapped inside the library as we celebrated our freedom gleefully. But in the end lei, they were released 5 minutes or so, after we left, what the heck. Ridiculous right?

During PE lesson, we had a frigging TAI JI session. Just because we are 16 doesn't mean that we are old. Anyways, I so did not want to follow the old teacher who was teaching Tai Ji. But then, Mr F was behind, watching our every move and we all had to do it even if we were unwilling. I seriously feel so embarrassed at that moment too, so many people were laughing at us! We looked like a bunch of dorks, practising tai ji in the middle of the skating ring for like 10 over times. WALAO. Plus, the secondary fours are doing tai ji for ACES day, just great.

These few days ain't good for me. Furthermore, FatFace accidentaly knocked into me, total ewness. I hope her germs are gone!
(For late comers, FatFace is a name for a person whom I absolutely dislike)

Maojie and Zhehao have already stopped using the computer by plugging out whatever things they have mentioned. It is also about time I stopped using the computer, but I don't think I can.

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(Alohaaa)


I feel so much alive because I am recovering. Actually, I guess I have already recovered lah with the exception of my cracky voice and horrible coughs. So on saturday, I had another fever attack which left my the next day and attacked my sister. Lol. So currently, my mum and Charlene are both sick, because of me. Umm, I was being a very nice girl today by visiting the clinic where they were, and helping them carry their medicines and stuffs. I don't know why, but I am feel pretty good since yesterday.

I kept laughing yesterday, I don't know why. So whenever I start to burst out into laughter and dropping onto the floor, my sister would just leave me alone by walking away. This scene totally makes me look like an idiot rolling on the floor laughing.

School today was fun. Felicia came to class laughing because she was laughing at the looks of the people in the past years class photos. But seriously lo, I think everyone would definitely look not-very-nice for the 1st class photo. I admit I looked like shit in my Sec 1 photo. Walao, I feel like photoshopping that picture. When you look at the photo, you will see a pattern in almost everyone. The girls hair, if long, are all tied up neatly into a ponytail with cleared forehead and no feelers by the sides, with all the pins here and there. The skirts are so long that they go below the knees, or half the knee. I feel so sad that I was once like that, total sianness. I look so much cuter during primary school. Okay lah, I don't find myself cute when I was young, my sister was way much cuter than me then. I'm so jealous.

Anyways, Felicia and I were laughing almost everytime today, although I can't remember what did we laugh about. Miss Yao was being such an idiot today. I don't understand why she insists of perfect silence in the class during what, reading period? Besides, Oral is already over. She's so naggy, always asking the same few people to shut up. Then she'll give her stupid emotional speech, where she'll have a serious and gloomy face, saying what education this education that, the education here is better than China and blahblah. It's so annoying. I really cannot stand or sit or squat or roll or hop her lah. That's why it sucks to have a co-form teacher, especially when it's her. She's always speaking in chinese, then she excepts students like Muztaffa to understand uh. Ridiculous.

Reply of Old/New tags:
18 Aug 09, 22:23
matthew: so weak, always get sick.
Like you very healthy liddat.

18 Aug 09, 22:52
zhehao!: omg charmaine you joker!Everyone also handsome!See doctor also say handsome!Wah best
I like to see handsome guys, cannot ah. My class no handsome guys mah. LOL. (._.)

19 Aug 09, 16:50
MaoJie: at least im suppose to be sick, but my strong body reduce the temperature. unlike you
Whatever, act strong only. Hahaha.

22 Aug 09, 21:13
JiaHui: Hello passed-by and tagged! Get well soon (:
21 Aug 09, 22:13
QIUYI: Tkcare charmaine!!:):)
23 Aug 09, 23:51
lynetteee (:: charmaine! get well soon <3
Thank you, :D

23 Aug 09, 16:43
JIAXIN.: at least i tag, u never ): hehe, get well soon xDDDDDDDDDDDD
I tag you liao, don't complain! Hahahaha. (:

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(Hello)


I've been ill for days, my throat is so sore that it hurts and my nose is so itchy. It's totally unbearable.

So Wednesday was my English Oral, the picture was about some flood and people were saving the plants and flowers and so on. I didn't really elaborate much though. Anyways, before the oral, I was coughing non-stop. So I was wondering how was I going to read the passage in peace. Somehow, during the whole entire time being tested, my cough stopped. I'm so fortunate. Umm, the conversation was about helping people, when it was unwise to help people and global warming and so. My mum got sick on this day too, I guess she contracted my sickness.

Thursday. I was fine in the morning so I went to school. But in the end, the fever came back. I didn't went back home because firstly, my mum was still sick and secondly, I was lazy. So my temp went up to 38.9 and I got to skip the extra science lessons. Haha. Funny thing was, when I got home, my fever was somewhat gone. So I concluded that my area in the class is full of viruses.

Today, Felicia and I kept laughing and laughing and talking and talking. We both had sore throats, and our voices are like cracking and they sounded like shit. We were making random noises and we recorded them. We burst out laughing when we replayed it, it sounded so horrible because we kept going out of tune.

Hmm, because I'm sick, I don't know if my mum allows me to go out and study later.

Blah.

;♥

(Aloha)


I'm supposed to be in bed, resting. But I feel that would be a total waste of time. Anyways, I woke up this morning with a slight fever. But I dragged myself to school because I thought I was on for Oral Exam today, when it's suppose to be tomorrow. Anyways, shiting kept saying I was as hot as an oven, (-.-) But I didn't have any energy to laugh then. Anyways, people kept asking me to go home, but I was reluctant at first because I don't wanna' take any medicine and I didn't want to miss Biology lesson. Then I finally agreed to go back home when my temperature hit 38.8 degrees. Mrs Tey was so funny, she was kinda paranoid and mantained her distance away from me because she was afraid she might contract some sickness. She was like hiding behind the door while talking to me, freaking hilarious. So I went back during recess time.

Walking under the hot sun was tiring cus my head kept spinning and my throat felt really terrible. While I was on the bus, the metal pieces behind me were like making some kind of sounds. I don't know what sound it was but I felt that the metal pieces were going to pop out any moment and kill me. Okay whatever.

So after I reached home, I went to visit the doctor with my mum. I had a total of 5 different types of tablet form medicines, and a bottled kind. Omigosh, I totally seriously hate popping medicine down my throat. The feeling is so darn horrible. One of the medicine that I have is the AntiBiotics, and the pill is seriosly bigggggg. I couldn't swollow it and I didn't want to. But in the end, I managed to swollow it, somehow.

& I'm so bored, I think I'll go back to school tomorrow.

The doctor was kinda handsome, hahahhahaa.

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(Yessss, back to blog)


All of a sudden yah, I miss hitting these little squarish black buttons. Hearing them go "piackpiack" or whatever lah. Hmm, since I haven't been blogging for like a week or so, I shall start with whatever that remained in my memory.

Today was rather funny, when we got into class, the first thing we saw, stuck onto the whiteboard was this orange paper with the words "Hougean talent". So Felicia and I wanted to play a prank on Wenda. When Wenda got back from her SS lesson, she too also saw the orange paper and read the details and so on. Then, Felicia and I walked up to her.

Charmaine: Eh Wenda, we signed up le.
Felicia: You, me and Charmaine.
Wenda: ?
Charmaine: We gonna dance 'it's you' for the Hougean Talent.
Wenda: nonononononononono.
Felicia: You will dance DongHae's part.
Wenda: -.-

Then Felicia and I burst out laughing, Jackson thought it was real and he really wrote our names down. Fortunately, we double-checked with him. Hmm, then Felicia left at 10am to do her Pisa(?) thingythingy, which meant that I sat alone for almost 4 hours in class.

Science remedial today. Felicia and I both the shocks of our lives. (Inside joke)

Chinese results on the 19th. Bahhhhhhhhhh.

And another dance performance on saturday @ the national library in the evening. Come if you want, I'm just advertising.

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(Update time)


I know I haven't been blogging for a week already, that's is why I'm updating for blog now before it becomes dead for another week again.

School is still pretty alright. With Felicia sitting beside me, I can laugh for like 5 minutes even though it's not funny. It's like I have inhaled some laughing gas or something. Then Felicia will totally ignore me when I'm laughing, which will make me look like an idiot.

So yesterday, I went out to study with Andy, Maojie and Matthew. I sat at the darn playground for 45 minutes waiting for all three of them. So when they came, we went to Mac and study. I revised my POA and blah. Had lunch there. After study, we went to the basketball court at zhehao's house. They played their basketball with another guy while I continued my revision. So I sat at the exact same spot for like hours. I wanted to go home but Maojie and Matthew kept saying "A while more". The "A while" became another hour or so. Typical guys, sighs. Anyways, Matthew and friend went home while Andy, Maojie and I walked back. I wanted to be a good girl and go home but then Andy and Maojie wanna go to the beancurd shop and makan. So they kept saying they aren't free on the 15 of Aug, which is my performance day, because I wanted to go home. So in the end, I had no choice but to accompany them. The situation became a good deal for me because I received two wishes, one from Andy and another one from Maojie. (:D) After their supper, we went home.

Sometimes, I get really pissed off with people. I know it's wrong to feel pissed off but I don't know, it's so irritating at times. Gee.

So I shall continue with my studies again.

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