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My heart feels so empty. ):

Thank you.

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Hi.

So yesterday I went for foreign bodies with Nowell, Zech and Gary. Damn shit because we were all damn nervous. Then Nowell kept saying she should have joined kickboxing (because they were just beside us), haha! So we went into the room, got divided into groups. Luckily Nowell and I were in the same group :D Then Zech and Gary were in the same group when I think they changed themselves secretly. HAha. Firstly, we played some ice breaker games stuffs. My group peeps are, Amanda, Nowell, Noelle, Sandy, Jolene, Geraldine, Qi ya, Randy, Khair and sheng with the seniors Thomas, Han jun and yahiro. Then did some choreo with 4 sets of movements which was a tradition that all juniors had to do. Then showcase. Ended arounddd 10:15pm plusplus. Nowell and I then met up with Zech and Gary again and went home. Zech and I got off @ bishan while both of them trained to umm marina? Haha. & home sweet home. Yay.
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And now Im going for some shit TCM thingy @ suntec. OMG, why did I even sign up in the first place. Damnnnn.

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가슴이 차가운 남자

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내가 알아요
나는 바보 이예요

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난못해.

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Bz.


There are f selfish people in the world.
You help them, they don't help you back.

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Hi.


Wtf is this, I got into foriegn bodies and they are unhappy about it.
WTH DID I DO WRONG, tell me.
It's damn hurting when you guys keep shooting me.

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Hi.


Cell bio report asks the dumbest questions ever.

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Hi.


I just read my post on may 13th a year ago which has not been published because I don't wish to let anyone know. So this is a post where only I myself understand.

Lying is the best medicine that I can give myself. After all these years, I tried to be oblivious to your presence, I still am now. And because I've forgotten all about you, your sudden presence hurts me even more because it brings me back to reality, it also brings me back to the scene that took place many years ago.

I cannot tell you how much I love you, nor can I tell you how much I hate you.

What you've done is simply unforgivable but yet, there is still a part of me who wishes that you'll come back and be that piece to complete the whole puzzle. But then when you're back, it happens so sudden and you are gone by the next day. So where exactly are you.

Nothing in this world can hurt me more than what you had done although you may never know this. My smile is just masking how I really feel deep down, very deep down. I'm happy when I forget, but when I recall, I crumble to tiny pieces.

I longed for your love and at the same time, I really do not.

The times with you are reduced into very vague memories. I can't seem to recall my happy moments with you, I can't seem to recall when you even cared and bothered. Written in my diary are only bad memories of you, the good ones have disappeared.

I don't know what am I feeling after all these years, I still don't know know what this feeling is.

All these years, I never told a single soul. All these years, it was buried underneath my heart. But whenever you reappear, the pain, the sadness, everything gushes out and floods my whole body. Then when you are gone, I have to tell myself to forget and move on, and bury everything all over again. It's hard, it is really a struggle.

So now I'm thinking, do I really need you in my life?

Do I?

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Hi.


In this world, there are 2 types of families.
One is perfect family, and the other is the not perfect family.

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Hmm,


I feel that I've became someone else. Someone unlike me.
I don't know why, it's all just happening too fast at the same time.

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Hi.


The problem is solved, thank god. And I shan't be mean towards her because if I were, that would mean that I am really unreasonable. I feel sorry for her because most of us dislike her and I think she knows. That is why she keeps her distance away from us. She walks alone now, disappears when we are having lunch and sits alone in the library. Well, I do feel sorry for her, I mean I wouldn't like to be alone too.

I don't know if this is a result from my actions because I feel that I am the one who started this ley. It's like I told a few people about the report thing and I think they went around telling other people, resulting in them feeling the unfairness too. I don't know because from what I've heard, 3/4 of the class doesn't really like her. Well, I'm okay with her now because if the report thing wasn't solved, I would have hated her for the rest of poly life. Luckily it is solved.

I hope everything will be alright!


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