Pity you say. It's because you pity me? You disgust me, your thoughts and everything. How can you simply treat us as nothing, like nothing has ever happened. I should had known, i shouldn't had trusted you. I shouldn't even had gone against my doubts in you. Maybe perhaps we are just not supposed to be. I guess, we were both each other's placeholder? But what do I really want. It's true that I don't wanna give us up. But I know, no matter what, the fate of ours has settled. This is the fate of us, and that is going our separate ways and letting time judge. Things will remain the same because the both of us would not know what to do about it and things will just repeat itself all over again. Personality clash when we're together I presume. Friends, perhaps that was when we were the happiest. Sadly. I know what is best for me, but I don't want to cry anymore. I don't want to go through the exact same torment I've been though before. I don't want to end up killing myself because I'm depressed. But I mean.. I know the answer very well. If you were to want me back, you would have said it already and not remain silent until now and end up pitying me.. Fuck. I don't need your pity. Fucking fighting with myself. I hate it.

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It's not like I didn't know what was about to happen, it's just I didn't expect it to happen this quickly. You left me hanging, just like that while you continue on with your life with no sense of guilt. Here I am being affected like fuck. Grey area, yes that's what I'd call the situation I'm in because I have no choice to make. But you, on the other hand, have the power to either break this or make this. This is how scary life is, how scary an individual can be. These interminable thoughts are wearing me out. I miss you.

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