It really kills me heart, to see you together with her.
It really pains me, that I'd end up hurting myself even more.
What do I do when we no longer say hi and leave without saying bye.
What do I do when I can no longer even look you in the eye?
Do you even feel guilty? That you had forgotten about what we had shared the month before?
Are you even human, to turn around so quickly that I didn't even realized.
Are you even human, to toy with my feelings and then leave?
Are you even human, to not feel a tinge of guilt within you.
Fuck you. You mother fucking lie.

;♥

Dear G,


I don't know if you will ever read this but it doesn't matter. This post is for you.
I don't know what's going on in your mind, nor do I know what do you want from me. All I know is you're treating me like a toy, to your beck and call. I hate it but I can't bring myself to not like you. What's with that night you brought me out to watch fireworks with you in new year's eve, and lying to others that you were supposed to meet. What about the day we went for dinner and sat the bus together to school. What about those times when you sent me home? Don't they mean anything to you? Don't you remember how you felt back then?

Why ignore me now. Why do you choose to forget everything now when there could be an us again.

And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave. Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone. These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase.

If you'd rather choose her, then go ahead. It's not like it's the first time anyways. I should just say, I'm used to it.

;♥